The Impossible

Just watched a movie called "The Impossible"
It was a true story about the tragedy of Tsunami happened in Asia
A lots of people lost their families
A lots of people lost their home
A lots of people even lost their life

I cried when I watched it
Heart was like tearing a part
I saw some of the people are selfish to help
Some of the people are so kind to help

I sincerely believe that there is always some people with heart out there
Human are not born to be evil
Environment changed them

I can't do anything about that
But I will behave myself to be good
I will help whatever if I can help
I sincerely wish that I could give a helping hand for those who need help

I believe that the world is still wonderful
I am glad that I am still alive
I appreciated all the good peoples around me
I thanks for those bad people for making me more stronger

I am good and I wish the world could be better

Let's be a human with heart
Let's help

I promised
I will be good...

Diet plan

Set my diet plan but I never follow it

Always screw up

This friend ask to hang out that friend ask  for gathering

Oh gosh! 

I am so fat and ugly :(

I always can't stand strong

Easily give up

Tomorrow and tomorrow

Tomorrow never end...  

;(

Hope things work smooth and I am able to forget the past

With Mr P support 

Thanks Mr P for be with me

I am scared

Suddenly think about the bastard
It reminded me about how he cheated me and threaten me 
It was my forever night mare

Hope I can walk away  from the shadow soon...

17.06.2013

I wanted to documented this special day
Today is the first day I join the big families for GH
Hope everything was fine for me in the future

My new colleagues was good
As far as I know..

Keep positive...

Thanks friends, families and lover for the wishes...
Love

New Job = New Life

Soon I will start my new job
Back to the normal life I used to had
Stress life

I am so nervous on it
I hope that I can do better and I can get along with my new colleagues

I hope somebody could give me some motivation
Tell me that I will be fine

This is the first time that I am so sure on what I want
Go for my dream and never look back

I always remind myself that everything will be okay
They won't bite 

Anyway, I will try to adapt myself with the new environment
Please wish me luck guys

Adel, you can do it...

The end

Finally everything had come to the end

Today is my last working day with "Pulai"

I am sad to leave my colleagues

I love them

But when the benefits of the company and the job tasks are not suitable for me

I know I should leave

For my career and my dream

I sincerely wish all my colleagues success in their future

I felt blessed that most of the people that i met love the way I am 

I will be good and stay calm

不堪回首的过去

难道错过了一次
就永远也无法回头吗？

过去不堪回首的种种
就犹如一场重播的旧电影
一幕幕的在我脑海里出现
提醒着自己
过去是多么的愚蠢
过去是多么的天真

我一直努力的提醒自己说
过去的就让它过去吧
不要再犯错了

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If there is a mistake happened 
Does it means that we could only accepted it and never look back?

What happened in my previous life
Was like an old movie
Keep repeating in my mind
It remind me not to be foolish and naive again

I was working hard to forget all the past




 

One of my friend advice me that not to be too lovely with people

Nowadays everyone are selfish

They don't care what is actually happening around them

But he can't understand that I am happy when people appereciate me 

Like what I did yesterday

I was in a bus and there is a lots of people sitting and standing

It was during working hours

A pregnant lady came in to the bus and no one was actually want to give her their sit

I immediately stand up and offer her my sit

Before she get down from the bus

She said thank you to me

I replied her that I am suppose to do that

She said no you don't but you did

I am not trying to show off that I am kind 

Just want to share and create awareness that

This world is actually everyone equal

We help those who needs help

Beause one day we might need others help too

What if everyone don't care?

This world will become sucks

Broken Doll

I am not sure that am I too naive to still believe in fairy tale
A lots of girls out there don't believe it 
They just simply get along with any guys that they think they love 
Maybe there is a true love among them
But who knows

I think I don't really know what means of love
I always believe in the fairy tales that I told myself
I  told myself that angel already assign the true love for me 
Just he is not here for me yet
Or maybe he is here but I never realize that or we both never realize that
One day maybe 
One day someone will come to me with a key
A key that open a broken heart

A lots of guys told me that they loved me 
But I am sorry that I always judge that 
Do they really love me?
9 out of 10 are asking something from me
I always said yes to them without failed
Maybe I am too scared of being left alone
I always hope that one day
Maybe one day someone will fill up the empty part of me

I am not desperate to find a lover or a  husband
Sometimes I just don't know who I can talk to when I got a problem
I got no shoulder for me to lay down and cry on it
I do not have another hand that hold me on the arms and tell me that 
"Everything is gonna be alright" 

No matter how strong I am
I am still a girl
I always think that a girl and a guy create a prefect match
That's why there is a gentlemen and a lady assist in the world
That 's why there is a word of "male" and "female"

Is okay, I can wait
I can wait until I been found
I can use up my entire life to be found

Case No.1:

- There is a guy that 3 years older than me, we went to the same secondary school, we used to text each others every moment, we used to talked on the over the phone for a very long long hours. I knew that we are in love. But when my friends asked me are you and XXX get in to a relationship? I denied that because the guy never told me that he love me or he like me. We are just flirting like that. But when his friend asked him are he in love with me? He never admit that too. But when I talked to another guy he getting jealous, he mad at me. At the end, I found out the reason that why he don't want to admit that he loved me. Because it was so hard for him to admit that he was in loved with a fat girl. 

Case No.2:

- I always felt lucky that I met him. he is one year younger than me. We went to the same secondary school as well. He was madly in love with a girl for few years I guess. But the girl rejected him and he was keep waiting. One night, we been to a party together, we had a long chat over the public phone next to each others, yea i knew it was silly we talked to each others using  a public phone in fact we are just beside each others. That night we started to text, we started to talked over the phone and lastly we are in love. Maybe he is in love with me. That's his first love and I guess so do I because he is the person that I gave my first kiss. He was proudly introduce me to his friend, told them that I am his girlfriend. But his brother was mad at him, his brother think that he deserve better. I myself I don't have confident on me, I felt that I embarrassing him. Some of his friend got a hot chick but he got a fat meat. Slowly I act like I don't care about him anymore. I pretend that I don't love him. Oh yea, his cousin was my best friend, and the girl thought that I fall in love with the guy is because of money. I just could not tell the guy that I wanna broke up with him, what I do is I draw a line with him. I rejected all the dates with him, I talked to another guys and I use the same ringtone with others guys. Just to make him dumb me. Finally, he text me and said that he felt we both are not suitable to each others. Now he got a pretty nice girl friend and we are still friend. He will never ever know this and he should not saw this post.

I hope I can figure out what happen to him
I saw his facebook that he was actually commit suicide
Glad that he is fine now
I knew that he already broke up with his girlfriend
I feel sad when i got to knew this

We are not that close
We only talked to each others for a month and we are friend on facebook
But I just can't let things happen 
I commented his post
I just wish to give him some positive energy
Just wanted him to know that actually there is someone who care for him out there

I wish I could take care of him
I wish i could be with him
Nothing much
Just wanna be with him quietly
I hate when others are sad

At night I can't stop myself again
I sent him a text
I told him that
"When life hit you bad, just stand up and fight back.
Sun keep shining, earth keep turning
Sometimes we have to learn how to let go
People come and go
That's life..."


I hope he understand what I am trying to said
Trent, I will always be here 
Right here for you 
I got your back...

I sincerely wish you could get well soon 
No mater your heart, your body or your mental

Looking forward to meet the new you...