Hello 2013

Hello 2013! 

Let's create a


 TO DO LIST for 2013

-Save money
-Change a job that I am interested in 
-Travel to at least one place 
-Diet!

MUST DO LIST 2013

-Learn how to love myself more
-Control my emotion
-Learn how to forgive and forget
-Stay happy
-Control my bad temper
-More Hardworking



HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013 EVERYONE...

MAY ALL YOURS WISHES COME TRUE AND HAVE A GREAT YEAR A HEAD!

LOVE 

Glad to talked to you again

You know it was a long while since our last long chat
I was glad to have you with me on the last day of 2012
We used to chat a lots of stuff
Shared our life and some culture exchange

Because of you, i knew a few words of Hungarian
Because of you i knew that there was a country in the world called
Hungary

We use to always chat for long hours
Until you move to Budapest to continue your study

It was glad to know you and i know that our  friendship will
last longer 
You are always one of my favorite friend

I wish you all the best in the new year and
Success in everything!     



 

Sometimes i take things to personal i think
It was my mistake
I am sorry

Omg! I never expect that there will be a lots of comments and likes on one of my facebook post...

 I love all the peoples around me.
Many of them bright up my day and little of them push me down
No matter what it is, how good and how bad they are
Thanks for being a part of me...


 

BB Boy I will always love you

突然惊觉
原来
明天你就要回家了
时间真的过的好快好快。。。

好想与你谈心
好想与你拥抱
无奈
你去了舅舅哪里

从小
我们就已经习惯了分离
我以为
我可以满不在乎
我以为
我可以装潇洒
但原来
我不能

你知道吗
其实
姐姐好爱你
只是
我不擅于表达
我觉得爱无需表达

希望你回家后
好好的照顾自己
谢谢你
成为我生命中的一分子
让我的生活
因为有你
而变得不一样。。。

永远爱你

Time fly
You gonna leave me and go back to our hometown
 Just realize that I love to hug you, I love to talked to you
Wish to give you a big hug now and tell you that how much I love you
Unfortunately you are at uncle's house now
Tomorrow i have to get up earlier to work...
Don't wish to wake you up early in the morning...

I thought that we used to separate
We use to stay apart
I don't even give a damn when you are leaving me 
I am wrong
I hate that feeelings
I gonna wait for another year to meet with you again!

Baby, I love you so much...
 Thanks for being a part of my families and thanks for being my brother.
You are the gift from god and I will always love you...

 

 
 
 

Thanks for your concern

Every time when i log in to my blog
I felt happy that I saw someone concern about me
At least he show he care...

I liked to hide all my stuff to others
When they asked me are you ok
I definitely will answer:" Yea, I am Fine" and gave them a smile
I seldom give my blog to others, because I feel that they never care

I appreciated all your concern and I am glad :)

Thanks once again... Love 

Domenico Natale

Met new friend today.
Mr Silly what i called him :)
A nice guy from Italy.

We had one hour Skype together with him and his sister.
We act funny and silly...
It was so surprised that Italian and Malaysian can make a real friend..

We promised each other that we should cam at least once a week
To release our stress...

Looking forward for our next date :) 

 

Warmest Greetings from far away

Thanks Sanjar for sending me those lovely pictures
I am lucky that I met you among all the peoples
You are a quite and lovely friend for me 
Although we never exchange skype (Oh yea just realize you got skype today)
Although we didn't speak to each others often
I will still miss you when you are not on facebook :)

First picture during my April Birthday....

Second picture while I complaint i need another picture to exchange

Christmas and New Year Greetings...

I am wondering what's next?

Looking forward and it always make me smile :)

Thanks friend...

Mom's first birthday cake

Mom's second birthday cake

:)

Hmm..Glad that we are families...

 

Both wearing "Mickey Mouse"

She is happy :)

:p

I am wonder for those who love my character will they hate me after they saw this post?
I am selfish and I don't like sharing...
I am bossy and Jealousy...

Just saw my ex schoolmate took picture with a guy that I used to know..
 I can feel that they are happy from the picture and I started to get jealous...
Of course they are not in a relationship..

I guess they are working together now, so called colleague.
I am sorry I act that way..

What I don't get I don't wish others people to get it too...
Yea, no doubt i know my heart is black in color and it got a small space

I don't wish to saw those picture like that... :(

 

Love me or Hate me

Love me or Hate Me, I am still gonna shine...

Everyone thought that I got a positive attitude
Show my smile all the time
Who knows that my heart is bleeding and I am hurt badly...

I am glad that some of my friends and families accept the way I am
Never request me to change

I been noticed that some of the peoples started to build a wall between me and them
I thought they already know who I am by the time we meet...

Force myself to pretend nothing
Maybe there is some misunderstanding between us

Whatever, just accept what it is... 
I am tired of explain...

Let it be...


强逼自己假装不在乎
不在乎周围的变化
一直提醒自己说
没关系
这一切
都会过去

是吗？
哪我现在在干嘛？

或许是我多疑吧

继续假装不在乎。。。。
 

I hate their visit

I hate them!
I hate their visit!
I don't care whatever relatives!
I don't care!!!

:( 

I can't control my temper when I saw them
I really hate that feelings!

I am sorry if I treat you guys rude...
I really don't like you guys...

Happy B'day Mom!

Happy Birthday Mom!
You know that I always love you right?
Thanks for pampered me to become such a bad girl :p

I love you guys :) Muakx!

 

Thanks for be a part of my life :)

Gosh! Should comb my hair :p

Lovely O.O

Does we look alike??

Doomsday

A lots of rumours saying that 22.12.2012 will be the Doomsday (The End of the World)
Some of the peoples started to store groceries, food and candles
I am not sure that is this truth or it was just a rumour
I am still doing what I suppose to do
Continue my daily life and Waiting for Christmas to come...

Let it be...

 

Thing goes wrong

I guess something wrong with me this few days
Too emotional? 
I don't know

Whatever, just leave me alone
Let me live the way I am...

I really wish to start all over again...

 

好想从新来过
可以吗？

总觉得自己把事情想得太简单了
开始怀疑
梦想会实现的一天吗?  

这就是我要的人生吗？
矛盾
 

Hope that I can make it!

Hello, Salvador- Brazil! :)

I promised Claudio that I am going to visit him on 2014.
Just checked the flight and found out that it was super duper expensive!
Gonna work more harder to save money. 
Perhaps, some part time job...
Luckily he offer me to stay with him

Claudio, I am trying my best...
I hope that I won't disappoint you.

Hello, Salvador, Brazil!

Again, I saw her posted a picture
I started to jealous again...
I know that I should be happy for her
But I just can't do that...

Should I delete her from my facebook?
She got nothing to do with me, we are so kind called friend
A friend that only met each others once

Okay, whatever....

Facing a very hard situation.
I guess I am not good enough to make my own decision.
I always influence by others
I need someone to explain to me
I need someone to advice me...

Am i too young to make such decision?
I don't know what is in my mind...
I don't know what happen to me...

I am lost.....

Jealousy is not good

Just found out something and i was shock

Well, Adeline

Don't jealous at others people

It is not good...

Arh!!!!

Money is EVIL

Quarrel with families last night

On the 1st of December

Thought it could be a great month :(

All because of the money

Yea MONEY

Got my salary yesterday

Take out part of it to pay mom for the house rental and my bills

I couldn't afford to give her any single sen extra

I was only left MYR400 with me for the entire month

I knew that I gonna cut all my entertainment...

No movies, No shopping and No nice food

Fine

Mom was mad at me because I din't gave her any household for this month

I was very dissapointed and wondering

With the MYR400 how can I afford to gave her any extra?

I was mad as well, I yeld at her and said: Could you please understand me? There is not compulsory to give!" 

I can't hold my tears and I cried whole night

I was dissapointed and sad

Mom keep saying that she won't borrow me any money anymore

Because I use the money to paid her back but I cut off her household

Sister came and yield at me as well

Saying that I should gave mom household without failed

Did anyone think about me?

Did anyone understand my situation?

They never put themselves on my shoes

Therefore they will nevcr understand my difficulties

End up judge me by what they saw

So called familes that build with Money

-The End-

33 Days to Christmas

33 Days more to Christmas

Dear Santa, I am going to write you a "love letter"
I hope that you could hear all my wishes...

I am not going to demand any present from you
What i wish is just a piece of cake....

I wish I could change my current situation
I wish that you could erase all the bad memories that I had
I wish that I could start all over again so that I could never made a wrong decision...

Perhaps I shouldn't be so greedy...
Maybe everyone of us is only allowed to make one wish only
Hmm
In this case, should I request a box please?
A box that I can hide myself....

Christmas is a date that bring hopes to peoples
Expecting it and I hope this year everyone have a great one...

木偶人的苦衷

现在才知道
原来
要构思一套谎言
是多么的艰难
尤其是面对
信任你的人

为了我自己的前途还有钱途
我必不得已的撒了一个谎
失眠了一整夜
不知道
该给什么理由去翘班

我不想令我现在的老板以为我是个翘班女郎
更不想另她觉得
我是个懒惰的员工

事情是没有十全十美的
如果我现在的工作
能够符合我理想的薪水
那该有多好

为什么我翘班了
她还要对我那么好？
为什么还要问我好点了没？
这样
只会令我自己更内疚而已
觉得背叛了她
背叛了公司

对不起老板
我希望你能够明白
我的处境

我赚的钱
不是只有我一个人花
我也不能这么自私的
要我老妈一个人负担所有的开销

对不起老板
请你原谅我

I am sorry Boss :(

坚强背后的故事

和她聊了好多好多
一直以来
我都觉得
她是一个乐观坚强的人
但原来那
坚强的背后
有着一些不为人知的故事

她是一个善良的人
有一个赤子之心
第一次看到她的眼泪
好想给她一个大大的拥抱
心里
不停的重复说
你一定要活得更好
现在和将来

感谢老天
让我遇见了你

请你一定要幸福！
好吗？

总有一天，你的王子会骑着马车来找你的。因为你是善良的公主。。。

再见悲哀

欺骗自己太久了

久的

忘了自我

忘了要追求更好的

只会傻傻的站在原地

假装微笑

假装我已经忘了一切

再见了悲哀

我知道我不可能把事情忘了

可是

我会把它们给埋了

是时候

迈开脚步

去找寻属于自己的一片天空了

Decive myself for too long

Until

I forget who am I

Forget to persue better

Hold my step on the past with a smile

pretend that I am fine

Pretend that i had forgotten all the sorrow

Goodbye sorrow

I know that is impossible for me to forget the past

But

I can choose to buried it

It's the time for me to move forward

Take a step

To find my own piece of sky...

Adeline, pick yourself up and carry on...

你永遠都不會明白
我那些
假裝的無所謂

" You will never understand those stuff that I pretend I don't care "

你以為把所有和他有關聯的東西丟掉
就能夠把事情忘掉嗎？
哪
你能把所有與他的回憶扔掉嗎？

You think you can forget him by throwing all the stuff that between you and him away?
Na
Can u throw away all the memories that between you and him?

Don't believe in Fairytale

When i was a little girl

I read a lots of story about the fairytale

But when i grew up

I realize that it was just a story

A story that bring hope to the kids...

When I grew up I realize that it was just a story

A story that never come true...

Fairytale does not exist in the world...

Maybe it does for a while

But trust me it will end soon...

So, don't ever believe in fairytale when you are still young...

To avoid yourself from awake from the dream...

人性本是自私

我應該不在乎的
可是
責任感不容許我自己這麼做

默默的一個人坐在火車站
眼淚不自覺的流
覺得自己好委屈
為了別人的事情
搞的自己那麼的不開心
是週末耶

可能是
我肚子餓了

梦想和现实真的差那么远吗？

梦想真的那么遥不可及吗？

现实轻易的就打败了梦想

怀着满腔的热血
怀着满怀的激情
追梦去！

现实把我拉了回来
好多人都说
你勇敢的踏出第一步
那你离成功就不远了

是吗？
那你拿什么踏出第一步呢？
信心吗？
信心能够当饭吃吗？
没有力气怎样踏出第一步？

或许
我是一个缺乏安全感的人
我需要好好的规划
确保自己有能力
是时候了
才会出发。。。

梦想对于现在的我来说
还是
那么的






遥不可及

胡言亂語

在放工的時候
無意間
瞧見了彩虹
才想起
原來好久好久
我都沒有停下腳步
好好的欣賞外面的世界


最近好像下定了決心一般
不停的告訴自己說
應該趁年輕時
好好的為將來打拼
有夢就要去追

活的精彩，人生才沒有白活

关关难过关关过

看到朋友在面子书上说
“关关难过关关过”
我觉得
她好正面， 好会鼓励自己

今天躲在一旁
看到三妹
好努力好认真的工作
心里升起了一团火
告诉自己说
我也要向她学习！
身为姐姐怎么能够输给妹妹呢？

或许
最近发生了好多好多的事情
我知道
是时候停止了
明知道是错误的
就不该继续

要坚强
要学会克服挑战
那些该死的问题和烦恼
都会乖乖的消失
只要
我一直保持着正面的思考
我知道
我办得到

反思

有多久我已经忘了

还有一个地方

让我抒发呢？

之前的工作

让我失去了自我

让我的生活变得一团糟

在那几个月里

发生了好多事情

觉得的自己

好颓废

好无助

期待着新的开始

新的生活

要从新学会好好爱自己

一直坚持的梦想，会有实现的一天吗？

一直坚持的梦想， 会有实现的一天吗？

从小我就梦想着要出国留学
可是
因为家里没有钱
根本就负担不起庞大的费用

渐渐的
我也已经把这个梦想
深深的埋藏在心里了

直到
中五毕业
有一部分的朋友都出国留学了
看着他们的相片
心里突然好羡慕
觉得他们好幸福
自己想要出国的念头更强烈了

心里难免会埋怨妈妈
为什么没有这个能力让我出国
无奈。。。