Saw this on facebook

"Someday your prince charming will come. Mine just took a wrong turn, got lost, and is too stubborn to ask for directions."
This is what I always believe and now still believe on it
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Today I am so happy
I video called with Jonathan
I always forgot that he asked me not to do the "OK" sign with my fingers
But I always forgot and I will just do it when I want to said OK
Then he will started to shy, his face turn red 
Ops I will shout and apologize 
Sorry sorry I forget about that and we both laughing

He will always introduce me to his families
Show me his house and I love to talk to him

When the call start, he will grab his guitar and sing me a couple of love song
Then we start sharing life

I love that feeling like we care to each others
We don't call everyday but he will try to call me when we both are available

:)

 
 

Not welcome

Work with the new company about 2 months already

I don't feel welcome at all

It seem like my boss dislike me

She always joke around with others colleague 

But except me :(

I can feel the way she treat me and sje treat others are different

Some of you my think that it must be my own problem

I think too much

But i can feel it

Should i go to talk to my boss?

Or

Should i just remain on the current situation?

I don't wish to give up easily

I always wanted to be stronger

Wish I have someone to share with

昨天和爷爷聊天的时候
他问我说
你几时要拍拖呀?
有男朋友了吗？
几时要结婚啊？

我回答他说
我不结婚了
我要做尼姑
他正经八百的说
你不要让你父母的事情影响你

我愣了一下
我没有想到
原来他那么在意这件事情
我好想安慰他说
不是那样的
不关大人们的事

是我自己
还没有找到
一个适合的人
或许正确一点的说
那个爱我的人
还没有出现

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Yesterday had a long chat with my grandpa over the phone
He was asking me how am I doing?
Got a boyfriend?
When am I will going out for a date
When am I going to get married...


I froze for a while and I joke to him
I told him that I am not going to get married
I wanna be alone forever
He was so worried

He told me that don't affect by my parents history
I just wish I could consult him that
No, nothing to do with their history
Is my problem

No one love me
No one come to me
Or I should said no one realize me neither

I was like left behind
Abandoned
Of course who don't want a better girl
Pretty
Charming
Good in social 
Sexy
Slimmer

I was out of all those critirea
I am totally disqualified

I won't just simply pick one guy and get along
If I can't find the one
I will rather be single and alone forever

Grandpa, don't worry
I will be good
You got a lots of granddaughter out there
They will get married and you will have plenty of grand grand son / grand grand daughter...


Love you grandpa
Like I always did....

I never see Mr P online for two days

I was worried

I guess I think too much

I keep checking on my skype 

I knew that he never came online

I was lost

Like something is missing

Then i just realized that he can leave me easily

Without the skype or line

We totally lost contact!

Then I started to think a lots of nonsense stuff

Is his wife found out that he got affair?

Is his girlfriend know that he got affair?

He was trying to ran away from me?

What happen to him?

:(

London?

When is he going to london?

Why I got no information at all?

Oh yea who am I to know what his schedule

I  am just a nobody...

Nightmare

Last week i kept awake from nightmare

The same nightmare

I dreamed that someone killed my whole families

Everyday different person get killed

By the time i want to look closer who is the murderer 

I awake 

When I woke up i felt sad like something in my heart are missing

A very important thing

But I don't know what is that...

Joy of the morning

Woke up early in the morning and received a message from Jonathan

He said that he miss me and he want to talk with me

I called her on skype while I am walking to the bus station

I showed him around the road, the cars and the sky

He showed me his new cell phone 

I like that feeling! 

Sharing with each others 

Caring :)

Even we don't speak often but we always miss each others and we skype maybe once a month 

I am happy! 

Ola Brazil :)

The story behind

Everyone have their own story 

So do I

We don't know what is behind the smile 

Wearing a mask and keep myself apart from others

Today when I was on the way to work

A stranger was greeting me

I was so scared

I thought is his friend 

I quickly walk away from the place while thinking who the hell is he

Why he greets me

He gave me a hard time

It cause me a nightmare

I just wish I could run away

Run away from him