Weekend

We had a lovely lunch on the Saturday

It's been a while we never had such a lovely lunch

But something happen before lunch

I am very particular in punctuality

A day before, I called up my sister and remind her that we need to get out from the house by 10:00 am

But she was delay until half an hour

I was so mad and i felt that she is not respect our date

I cried '(

I am a crying baby

I don't know what happen to me that day

I was just too emotional

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Yay Sunday. I stay home the whole day

I spend my time watching WWE and CSi and read a book

I am glad that I on my skype

Usually on the weekend I do not turn my skype on 

But this Sunday I was thinking I got nothing to do why don't just let it open

Surprisingly "he" chat me

We had a video chat for a while

It was glad to see him 

It been a long time

I am happy 

Love is flying in the air :)

Oh yea, I video chat a while with Jonathan as well

He woke up at his time 6am, whereby my time around 7pm

We chat about our own life and he not yet brush his teeth!

Omg
I asked him to watch WWE so that we watched it together

He can't take his eyes from the screen and he was screaming like a baby

I enjoy my weekend...

Bad News

Just received an e-mail from the International company saying that they found someone who more suitable than me to perform the job task

I was stunk and disappointed
I was asking myself am i not qualified?
What's my problem?

It always end up disappointed when i am putting a lots of hope on it

:(

Why are those half caste baby are so cute?
I feel like wanna get one!
Find a western husband and get pregnant

I hide myself in the pillow
Turn the light off and my tears started to fall
Now i realize that i really care

I always over protected myself from getting hurt
But i never realize that I am actually hurting people
I always judge people that maybe they don't really love me
Maybe they are just using me to kill time
I don't know maybe the past hurt me badly
I am so afraid to seal my heart and learn how to love again

I hide my heart in a box
I hide my feelings to peoples
I just wish that someone will understand what i am thinking

I don't start a conversation first because I don't know how to express my feelings
But it doesn't means that I don't care
I care that's why i keep quite
But it caused misunderstanding and it's become I don't care

Ade! What are you doing?
When you will change this attitude?
There is no fairy tale
There is no prince in the world
You could not expect that one day your prince come and tell you that he can read your heart
He can read your mind
No one can....

You know what you cannot be so selfosh
One hand can't clap
You can't expect people to trying very hard to keep things work
You have to done something
You are just so selfish!

Please stand up and try harder
Be more lovely
I know you can do it Ade

Stop crying and try harder

I just wish i could wash away all the old memories

Everybody have their plan "B"

I guess I am the first one who planning to change my job
I am the first one that who realize the company have problem
Don't get me wrong what i means is the management problem and how the way our boss deal with the employee

But today out of sudden some of my colleagues was planning to change their job too!

I just got an interview on last friday
I wish i could get that job
The people in HR told me that she will let me know the result either on today or tomorrow

But today i wait and wait, still no news
I hope there will be a good news on tomorrow

Ade,don't give up
You are a strong girl

Change or Not change

Was thinking should I change my mobile number?
I need yours opinion
I think it's all from the past 

I used to flirt a lots with guys in the past
But not now
Some of them I blocked and removed when i realize that it was wrong

I should not to that
I should be a good girl

But recently one guy keep texting me and I can't even remember who he is
I felt annoying and he is an asshole
Asking me for pictures and so on
When i refused to answer him
He said " Fuck You" and scolded me an "asshole"
He said that he will pay me

What the hell is that?
Now who is an asshole?
Just because a girl want to protected herself from peoples like you
She deserve to be called an asshole?

What's on my mind was
If i sending pictures out who are the one that will get hurt at the end?
I don't even know what are you going to do with those pictures

If a guys don't know how to respect a girl         
He does not deserve to be be respect

So should i change then?
        

23

Thanks guys for all the wishes
I had a blessed b'day
Thanks for the b'day song
Thanks for the wishes 

I love you guys!

Pray for Boston

Early in the morning
On my way to work
Inside the bus i was browsing facebook through my mobile
I was wondering what happen to Boston?
Why a lots of people said was discussing about it?
I go to google it and I found out that there is a tragedy happened!
Boom explosion during the marathon!

How could people do that?
What is the motif behind the explosion?
I felt sad and I could not understand why
What is the point to hurt others?
What you can get from the explosion?
There is no gold under the ground!

World changed
People changed
Society forced some of the people to the dead road
They choose to hurt others people to balance up their sucks life

I am speechless

R.I.P for those who passed away during the tragedy
For those who had injured, I wish you guys get well soon
You ran away from the death, there is nothing that you could not take.

Believe that tomorrow will be a better that
No matter what it is
Just choose to believe...

Happy B'day to Me

Happy B'day to me~
Happy B'day to me~
Happy B'day to Ade
Happy B'day to you~

Finally I am officially 23 years old!
Let's make some wishes

1. Keep up the good mood, wanna practice ignore what people do to me, just pretend i don't give a damn. 

2. Pay more attention to work

3.Save money, Australia trip is waiting for me

4. Friends and families are healthy, success in school and works

5. A lots of people love me

6. Moneys come to me :p

7. The last one, I wanna keep secret to myself :)

8. The people that I loved will know about it :)

Again, Happy 23 b'day!!!

She Wronged me

Sigh...

It could be a lovely Monday today

I motivated myself to work

I get up slightly earlier compare to normal day

I thought everything could be fine

A client request for a revised proposal which she think that the original proposal that we sent the price is slightly higher compare to the last proposal that we sent 

Her requested month of the event is October and she compare the proposal for the month of January

One of the sales manager thought that it was my mistake 

I put the wrong month of the proposal without checking the proposal and the e-mail

Assume again

Then text me saying that I send a wrong proposal and the tittle also wrong 

I was like what?!

I gave her a call tried to explained to her what is actually the client request

She replied "Ok" without apology

If there is a mistake from me I will admit it and apologize but it wasn't my mistake 

You wronged me and there is no apologize?

Maybe for you it is a small matter

But for me it was a hurt

If there is no trust as a colleague

I got no idea that how we can work for each others for a long term period

Ade, forgive her 

Anger make you suffer

Take a deep breath and forget about it

p/s: Should i find others job if I think i cannot work with them?

 

Lovely Sunday

Received a called from my best friend to date me out on the Sunday
Which I suppose to stay home and relax
Watching my CSI or WWE
But I accepted his invitation because we never meet each others for a month

We went to a famous temple which now is one of the famous tourist spot
Normally I will only pray when I was hopeless and helpless
I am facing that situation now

I am a free thinker
But when I am hopeless and helpless 
Why not just give it a try?
Since we are there

Thanks Jay for the nice Sunday outing and Thanks for the early birthday celebration
Glad that you remembered it...

Collection

Thanks Yen for brings in these two new members to join the big families...

Dear friends all over the world thanks for your kindness :)

Cloud please stop crying

Dear cloud,
Please stop crying
I been reached home late
For almost a week

I know that you was sad to see the world changed
So do I

People changed to be selfish
People changed to be greedy
People changed to be cold blood

I am sad for that
But there is nothing that we can do

Please give me a big smile
Let me feel the sun
Let me feel the wind blow

Ade, love yourself

Useless

Sometimes I just feel like I am so useless
I always hope that I can perform better 
No matter as a employee, as a colleagues, as a friends or as a families
I am failed

It was like a heavy stone pressure my heart
I can breath well and I feel bad

I am trying to be good 
I am trying to be perfect
But i just can't...

Please do not hate me for my useless
Please bare with me....


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我一直觉得自己很没有用
无论在工作上，同事之间，家人和朋友之间
我都觉得自己很失败

我常常觉得自己不够好
我一直希望自己可以表现的更好
可是
我就是做不到

我总觉得有块大石头压着我的胸口
觉得不舒服

我不希望所有的人
会因为我得不完美
而
讨厌我

请大家体谅我
给我一点点的时间。。。

Bad Day

09.04.2013
Today was a bad day for me
I was late in the morning
Did not manage to catch the earlier bus to work
End up miss the office shuttle
Fine
Follow one of my colleague's car
Thanks Rafique

Then at the afternoon my boss asked me for lunch
She said there is a nice restaurant that she wanted to bring me
When we was there the restaurant was closed
End up we ate at the other restaurant which is expensive

The whole day i was suffering for the period pain
I took 2 pills today

Finally it comes to the time to go home
The sky was dark and i knew that it's going to rain soon
Waited 30 minutes for the bus to go home
Started to rain and I was waiting outside the bus due to the driver went for rest
I mean i got no problem if you wish to rest everyone got the right to do so
But can you open the door and allow us to get in to the bus and wait for you?
Everyone was waiting under the rain
It was cold and the rain was heavy and I am suffer from the pain!

On the way home, he buts suddenly having problem and we was stuck at the middle of the road
Omg, it was so cold and the rain was heavy
We waited for the back up bus to pick us up
I walked home under the rain...

At that moment I was hoping that I got someone right beside me 
Told me that everything is gonna be find
 But i don't have... 

Congratulations Cena

Congratulations Cena!
You did what you promised to the WWE Universes
You are officially the WWE Championship now!
I am happy and proud for you!

Sad that I missed the live show at my time 9am in the morning
I got to worked
But it's okay, I can watched playback this Friday...

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Having period on today first day
Tried to ignore the pain and skip the pain killer
Hope I can stand until the end :(

I hate period a lots...

Hiking Day

O,M,G!
Can you imagine that?
Ade went for hiking?!
Yes, I went for hiking in the Sunday Morning
Broke up with my bed
Wake up early in the morning

I am so tired and hungry
I means after the trip

I saw a lots of aunty and uncles
They can even reached the top of the hill but I just can't
I guess I should go often so that one day I will reached the top too...

Ade, you got to go on every weekend!
 Give me some positive energy please...
 

US?

Something special today
While I am looking for a job
Received an e-mail from a guy whom work at the hotel in US
Was asking me am I interested to join them

They offered me with USD 6500 per month, include accomodation, flight tickets and insurance
Which I converted to ringgit Malaysia was about 20K++ per month
I was shock! 
This was a lots of money

I was wondering is this a trap?
Can I trust the guy?
But when I searched on the internet this hotel really exist and the e-mail of the guy is from the hotel instead of personal e-mail
In order to make sure 
I guess I will called up to the hotel in US and check on it

It was unbelievable
If it's true
I will just accept the offer and go on

If It's not then I will alert the hotel itself and inform them that someone is using their name to cheat on peoples around

Anyway, it was a special day for me...
At least something special happen

Love you, Ade...

 

Phobia

I know something wrong if i phobia to work
I never have that feeling before
Like I wish to run away
Escape from my colleagues

Omg! I guess something wrong with me
Where all my positive thinking?
Where is all my motivation?